Worthwhile..

Have u ever thought that maybe u had more worth then u know u were living up to!? That no matter how hard u try, sometimes, it just doesn't seem to matter? It just doesn't seem to be e enough. When did I stop trying to reach for the stars? Why can't I just focus, for once, and actually accomplish something in my life!? I am happy. I have a beautiful, perfect, child, who adores me and is constantly challenging me to be a better person, a better teacher, mother and example for her. I have a supportive, caring husband, who always me laugh, and gives me whatever I want. I have a great set of friends that have become family to me and I also have a wonderful family. So, why isn't that enough? Why can't I be content that I hav this blessed life, instead of feeling like I should be doing more? I am productive. I am hard working. I am far from lazy. So why isn't anything ever enough? Why is there always something else, something that is missing? Something that I should be doing?

jumbled up.

have u ever felt that maybe you might, just possibly, be more complex then absolutely necessary?  that at one minute, u can be thinking about something, and be all excited?  and the next, u feel guilty?  and the next u feel accomplished?  and the next u feel...well, you get the idea.  this is how i have been feeling lately.  there is alot that i want to do with my life, and yet i have this guilt like i should be doing more. like a balance, acceptance, and MODESTY of what i can and can't do is needed.

side note:
i love that i can listen to music, and it can totally inspire me.  i have been having issues with this, inspiration lately.  its like, i have the desire to draw, paint, write, but in the back of my mind, i am adding so much weight as to whether it will look good, or i will like it, that i haven't jump started my thoughts into actions.

ironic that i should just be doing it, and here i am writing about it.
(waiting for the paint to dry, so i can edit :D)

i haven't written in a while, so i thought i would.

this in mind, i'm about ready to start finishing up this double drawing that i have started.  i like the concept & think that i will be doing more of this, once i get it figured out :)

good night, fellow bloggers & hope to hear from you soon.

online journal?

so, i've definitely heard about blogs. read about blogs, and seen friends blog.  but never did one myself.  however, since i have been journaling since i was a child, i DEFINITELY think that this is something i could get into.  however, i am pretty sure, you might just have to be bored, or want to realllly know what is going on in my life, because i will be pretty sporadic, and probably unorganized as to what i write about.


i guess i won't tell you my secrets. all of them, at least :P  i'm unsure if i am supposed to direct this to someone or not, but i will just write like i journal.


tap, tap, tap. i love the sounds that my fingers make on the keyboard, and i think that is why i type away speedily.   anyways, this will be a short introduction as to what i am thinking will be a rather fun time, but i only have a few minutes so i must say adieu.  much love, boriqua.